Self Perception
As is often the case with many of my blog posts, it is inspired by a chat with Miss S. She again pointed out that what i had said would make a good basis for a new post. (She is such an inspiration to me in so many ways)
Self perception — by this i mean how i feel about myself and what i perceive of my life. I am sure that the male part of my brain is happily taking a back seat, as is the adult part of my brain. They exist, but after years of training and adjustments, plus the fact that I love being agnes (a sissy little), they are having less influence.
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I am content and happy that for the majority of time i perceive myself as being a six year old girl. I love the freedom this gives me. Within the boundaries that Miss S sets and has created it means i can be myself.
I love the combination of TV (CBeebies only), playtimes (toys and games), drawing and colouring, proper bedtimes (730pm or 7pm or 6pm) and my bedtime routine (songs, nursery rhymes and stories — thank you BBC Sounds)
My brain does not rebel at any of this, in fact if revels in it, and the whole think makes me happy and content and relaxed. I do not miss my previous adult life, which is slowly fading. I still work part time a financial necessity sadly, but have created a set up there that benefits my life and is very separate to agnes.
All in all I lucky. It’s what I want. It’s what I need, And what Miss S has created around me makes me one lucky little girl
Thank you Miss S
