midnight
I was scrolling in my gallery and, by chance, i found a screenshot of an old conversation that i deleted from years ago .
The text said :" and if i one day had to let you go may that day be my last"
It was a long conversation i barely remembered yet i remembered the good cry while having it( i got it after i knew i was cheated on).
I smiled when i read that text and just deleted it. Now as I’m about to sleep i think about that text i thought for an instant I won’t forget ever and here i am bumping by it by chance not even remembering it
I rolled to my back and i thought about the sender and for the first time after 3 or 2 years i decided to stalk him, curiously, to see what I don’t know
Well, i want to know nothing about him because it means nothing to me but still i searched.
Here i am i see him with his pretty girlfriend. They have been together for long time. They look deeply in love.
She is so pretty. I always imagined him with such a pretty girl. I always knew I’m not his type, plus they look really meant for each other i can feel the chemistry between them from the screen.
I blocked his account. I don’t have any idea why but i just blocked him and i thought about my life after us.
I got someone else too.
I got to my dream university and i made new friends
I forgot totally about him i was too busy to even remember our story and it really was good to forgive, forget, and just let go.
I opened my gallery again and i looked for the album of my second love’s pictures
I looked for a long till a tear dropped from my eyes because nothing is clear now and i don’t know where exactly I stand in his life
He once told me that I’m " a check point" but what about me?
I moved to the next picture and i admired his smile and i wondered
Is this one going to be forgotten too? Will i ever let go of him as i did before?
Well it’s heavy to feel what i am feeling but still i can wait.
He’s good, he is the most creative person to ever meet but he got a little issue ( I’m never prioritized or even thought about not even standing tall in his life)
And so, i closed my gallery and jumped to my notes because such midnight thoughts should be marked down to be forever remembered
What i am sure about is how far i would go for someone i love and how far i can go from someone i love
