Feelings 3
Today it’s a glorious day, clear blue skies and the sun is warming up after a cold night. Many people will say that their mood is influenced by the weather, feeling happier with sunshine and grumpier in rain and wind. I’m not sure I feel the same. I remember beautiful sunny days with me totally not enjoying that. On the contrary, all these “cheery” people would actually annoy me somewhat.
However, today I don’t mind too much about the weather. I’m feeling relieved in a way, hopeful and a little wobbly. There is a sense of calm as well, but it’s fighting for a spot on the stage with worry and concerns. Basically, it can go either way for the remainder of the day.
Relieved: no longer feeling distressed or anxious; reassured
Hopeful: feeling or inspiring optimism about a future event
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Wobbly: tending to move unsteadily from side to side
Worry: feel or cause to feel anxious or troubled about actual or potential problems
Concern: anxiety; worry
Also feel the need to come back to that sadness I talked about yesterday. Looking at synonyms for sadness, the word that suits my feelings best is sorrow.
Sorrow: a feeling of deep distress caused by loss, disappointment, or other misfortune suffered by oneself or others.
I was just starting to get a little frustrated about these definitions. I thought they didn’t shed much light. Now this one is more like it. This is helping me. The reason for my sorrow is probably disappointment. Now disappointment is for me directing at my expectations, something I could be in control of. That's not the case for sorrow, I think. Or maybe then it’s caused by loss, just the question is the loss of what?! Loss means you’re missing something or someone. Emptiness. The sadness I have in me is definitely linked to emptiness. I reckon I could do something about it. And in any case whenever it hits me, let it be. It needs to come out apparently. It’s not endless, one day it will be gone. I’m sure of it.
