firelight, a windowsill
in the silence i survive, still…
i will die on repeat until the end of the ends

tiny mites are in my lungs
and a parasite is my tongue
i feel you scratching behind my eyes
you’re a curse, an abomination

it’s the price to know your self
lose your human rights or go stealth
out of spite, i exist with all my bestest of friends

cowards eyes, you gaze too far
and i see the things you think we are
we are disgusting, falling apart
you just destroy cuz it’s in your nature

(all the love from my siblings and my elders
return to her and tell her so she’ll say
“i don’t know why you’re afraid”)

(all the love to my darlings in the furnace
this world will never burn us and we’ll say
“i don’t know why you’re afraid”)

tell me why you stole my voice
all my rhythm and my reasons for joy
you don’t protect me, i’m in the dark
all i see is annihilation


YOU’RE TELLING ME I CAN BE CRUEL
YOU’RE TELLING ME I SHOULD BE COLD
YOU’RE TELLING ME I SHOULD SEVER MY ARTERIES
AND BE WHATEVER YOU WANT

CUZ THIS IS THE WAY THAT YOU WIN
BY SAYING I DON’T HAVE A CHOICE
YOU’RE TELLING ME SOMETHING RIGHT IN THE HEART OF ME
IS BEGGING TO DIE

YOU’RE TELLING ME THIS ISN’T REAL
AND NOBODY ELSE IS AWARE
YOU’RE SHOWING ME VISIONS OF MY DESTRUCTION
OVER AND OVER AGAIN

I’M FALLING AND I HIT THE GROUND
I FEEL IT SMASHING MY FACE
YOU’RE TELLING ME LOOK AT IT AND I LOOK AT IT
AND I CAN’T TURN AWAY