Just a Small Rant About Humanity.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I repel people. It isn’t a choice. Some humans just can’t handle my soul, my energy, my enthusiasm, me.

By this same reasoning, the science of magnetism, I must, therefore, attract… right? Unfortunately, I do attract narcissists. I love to give, and they love to take. It is unfortunate, but I must be able to attract decent humans too?

My life can’t possibly be meant to be walked completely alone (aside from my tiny human.)

I watched a TikTok by @Helen Villiers where she theorized that wounded people that weren’t really loved by their parents tend to look for parental types in their adult relationships. Those of us that are looking for caregiver types to give us the unconditional love we never got are susceptible to abuse. Narcissistic adults look for childlike energy because they are easier to control.

Adults that received unconditional love end up connecting with other adults look for playmates.

I guess that is where my healing is helping. I have been doing all my inner healing work, and have been looking for the joy in this life. I have been looking for other humans that like to play in the same ways as I do. The problem I have been running into is a sort of elitist attitude amongst the people in these groups I want to play in.