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31st January 2026
Opening up opens up new doors…
In real life, I’m very guarded. I don’t often tell people that I make music. I’m a little shy about telling people I am a wrestling content creator. I rarely tell people that I write.
I fear judgement. I fear people telling me my aspirations are too grand. I fear having to evade the question “how are you going to make that happen?”
The spiritual energy of it all
I grew up Christian, kind of became a heathen, found myself on a spiritual path, and now I just believe in God.
Through all of that, I acquired the belief that if I tell people my plans, they could put bad energy on them.
I’ve never been an “I’m going to do it to prove you wrong” type. That kind of motivation feels misguided, like I’m not actually doing it for me.
Perhaps I should let people’s doubt motivate me. Perhaps there’s nothing spiritual about them affecting my plans. Perhaps I’ve been allowing people’s doubt to dampen my spirit.
Conversations over explanations
By now, from my posts, you may know that I don’t like to talk about myself to friends. The things that excite me are somewhat niche.
