My Final Goodbye To Jenna Marbles
This is one of the hardest blogs I’ve ever had to write. Saying goodbye to someone who meant so much to me is not exactly easy to do.
Today Jenna Marbles announced that she was ending the Jenna Julien podcast. She’s been off the internet for about a month to focus on her mental health, and it looks like this is a clear sign she isn’t coming back any time soon.
Jenna was more than a youtuber to me. She was more than just entertainment.
Back when I started watching Jenna, about 7 years ago, I wasn’t exactly the best person. I had some serious anger management issues to say the least. When I started watching her Youtube channel I was able to find an outlet where I could just be happy, even for a few minutes.
Over the years I dealt with serious depression and anxiety. Watching Jenna every day helped me to overcome all of that. I was laughing, smiling, feeling good. When I had a sad day where I just wanted to curl up into a ball and cry, Jenna was the only one that was there for me.
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The reason I am even standing here today as a happier person is because of Jenna. I am no longer that person who thought the whole world was out to get him. I’m no longer that person who couldn’t understand why they wanted to cry. I’ve finally found who I was. I’ve finally found what it means to be happy. Jenna was the one who helped me through all of that.
I know that sounds weird. I have never met Jenna. How could somebody who doesn’t even know me help me that much? It’s because she was always just herself. Even when she messed up she would own up to it. That’s what I admired about her. I wanted to be just like her.
However, it would be selfish of me to want her to continue making content at the expense of her own happiness. That is why as much as it pains me to say goodbye it’s the right thing to do. I want Jenna Marbles to just be Jenna Mourey.
I’ve been there before. I was an actor, comedian, podcaster, etc. I know what it’s like to force yourself to make content every single week. Eventually it changes you. That’s why I don’t publish blogs as much as I used to. My own mental health comes first. This is why I know how important it is to Jenna.
This might not be goodbye forever. Maybe years down the road she’ll come back in some small way. Or perhaps she’ll move on completely and start a new chapter in life. Jenna is a smart lady. She can chase down any career she chooses and excel at it.
I just wanted to say thank you Jenna. I hope you can find true happiness. I hope you find yourself. Just like you helped me do all those years ago. I can pay it back by just lending you my moral support and not selfishly complain about how I want you to stay on the internet.
You are one of the sweetest and most caring people I’ve ever come across on the internet and I wouldn’t trade all of those years for anything. No matter how many years go by, I will support whatever you do in life.
Should you choose to never go on social media again then at least I will know that you’ve found the happiness you searched for.
