Divide Between Self and Desire

passion is winding you up and putting you in a place that brings you to home and fire, no one can see what you are up to even not yourself. the tension, depression, and withdrawal make you leave the world. in the meantime, part of you wants to rebel and fight for what you wish even if the gap between what you are and what you want is like a long bridge that your heart can't cross, the more you remain there the more you want to be someone else, you want sometimes someone to be fragile and close with that you can't have, is it too much to ask for. Conflicted by reality and illusion, withdrawal was always lingering in mind yet hope of getting somewhere with someone who considers you something is always there