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Desire
Long gone from my body
that shivery yearning
for your forever gaze
and slow smile that put
a fever into my blood,
as your voice, deep and mellow
ran a bass clef line
that made my heart thump off rhythm.
I blushed, I stammered,
I sank into my skin
when you strode into the room
and all the ladies’ heads turned.
The brave women approached you
and my heart burst
from the thousand tiny shots of light
that was your laughter.
Now a padded memory
of a yearning that disappeared from me.
I do not feel the longing thrill,
wonder if it was ever real,
passion sanded down
by years of long winters
and venlafaxine.
Was it mere chemicals in my brain
switched off and on by a man in a white coat,
who will decide when I am ready,
if I will ever be ready,
for the freeze of time
where I catch my breath
in a flash and wonder –
will I fall or hold steady?
