Lonely.
There’s a difference between alone and lonely.
Alone is where no one is there except you. You exist, no fathom, no ransom, just you.
But lonely? Everyone exists but no one’s around you. You’re scared. You’re frightened. You’re just that small, little black dot, surrounded by the youth. Or worse, society.
When you’re lonely, what do you do?
Do you cry?
Do you sigh?
Do you play with your fingertips?
The truth is… I’ve been there. We all have.
Our lonely times, we corral on the bed, crying through the sheets. Or we get out from class and just let yourself experience the dazzling quire of nature’s beauty.
Familiar?
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Even though we have different personalities, different lives, different parents, we’re still the same.
You think no one understands what you’re feeling, but it’s you who didn’t understand. You think you’re the only person who suffered this and that. You think you’re the centre of the world, the main character who suffers more than his ancestors.
Right, let us take us a detour.
You failed a test? That’s cute because I failed life. I failed to make things right, I failed to improve myself, I failed to shine my parent’s smile. I failed tests too. In my elementary school, almost all of my papers were down to a zero. Why? Because I cheated and every time I cheat, I estimate it to a whole zero, no exceptions. That’s life.
You got bullied? I understand, but life bullied me. Elementary school, when my mother wouldn’t pick me up in time, I would cry. I was such a burden. I hated myself. I had mental problems. One time I cried in the third floor of the Mosque, where no one was around. I hit my head hard, I spat terrible words at myself, and I even intended to suicide once.
C’mon, shout all your problems at me and I’ll shout you some more. We’re not arguing, we’re just trying to make ourselves feel a little less lonely. So you will know, you’re not lonely.
We’re all not perfect, and that’s okay. We make mistakes, that’s okay. What we need to be is to accept yourself.
Accept that the reason you’re here today because of you.
Your past mistakes, your terrible choices, even if it’s as dreadful as a nickel, it’s how you’re here today, it’s why you’re breathing the fresh air cleansing down the loving atmosphere.
You’re not lonely, because God is always with you.
I’m with you, other people are with you.
We’re always with you.
