Adult Phase?
Lately, I became to be a lazy. When I got a lot of school assignments, I am always procrastinating all of them. I realized that I have changed a lot. When I am still on 10th and 11th grade, I became a diligent student. I always did my all of my assignments all time. I don’t know why when I am on 12th grade, I became a lazy student.
I always did my homeworks at my school. Actually all the homeworks should do on home, but I didn’t do that. When my chairmate asked me about a homework, I always said, “I don’t do that homework, yet”. And then, my chairmate told me like this, “What? You don’t do the homework, yet? Why you become like this, to be a lazy? When you were at 10th and 11th grade you didn’t like this, dude. What’s going on with you?”. When she told me like this, I was like, “I don’t know. When I am already to be a senior in this school I’m always lazy to do anything. I am totally tired. I will do my activity when I am already having a good mood first”.
In this senior era at my shs, I am always having so many terrible minds. Next year, I will be graduate from my senior high school. I am still confused with my decision of my plan after graduated. And, this thing made me always had terrible minds. Terrible minds were always making my body and soul tired. At one night, I cried silently. I cried caused by my fucking minds. I hate it.
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When I was a little, I wanted to be an adult. In my eyes, adult was fun. But, now, I am 17. This year will through an adult phase. And, I realize that, being an adult isn’t fun. Not. Fun. I want to take my childhood words back.
And now, I do my all activity with all my surrender. I am always surrendering to Allah SWT. for my currently life.
Being an adult isn’t fun.
I don’t want to be an adult.
I want to be forever young. I wish.
