My Twin Came Back Twice…
Ok he didn’t come back in person but he did reach out via text and was his playful, sweet, caring self.
A little back story. We live in different states, about 2 1/2 hours away. We met online and visited each other in person a handful of times. We never started an offical relationship, never fought or blocked each other. I had pushed for more in the beginning and he ran. You can say we have a mutual, unconvential, unspoken situationship. We don’t talk much but whenever I reach out he’s always there.
Anyway, so I always reach out first but about month ago he was the one to text first. I was just sitting on my couch without a care in the world just living my life and boom he started blowing up my phone. Saying sweet nothings, wanted to see me, needing me, etc. He even made plans to come up the following week to see me. I was over the moon! I was so excited and happy. I was planning for his visit, but he didn’t come. I was crushed and a little angry. I knew it wasn’t him. It was me. I have to remember that he is me, my soul in another body. He was and is mirroring me. So, what was this showing me. That I was seeing us as being separate. I was chasing and being attached to the “other person”, when there is no other, it’s just me. A few weeks later, I reached out to him out of concern for the snow storm we were both going to be getting. He responded right away, being his sweet caring self and told me to call him when I got home. He has never told me to do that before. I was excited and nervous all over again. Guess what, he didn’t answer. I saw again what I did. I pushed him away with what I know now as my unregulated energy. I started learning about the nervous system after this happened. My nervous system is unregulated when it comes to him. My body is saying this is new, this is exciting, this can’t be real. When something is unfamiliar to the nervous system it rejects it out of fear for protection . So, that’s exactly what showed up in my 3D world, fear and rejection.
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Now I have to work on being calm and present or in other words living from Soul, even when he’s in the picture. I end up manifesting him when I’m being the real authentic me “Soul” instead of living in my ego mind. When I’m living from Soul he comes back because he’s my Soul just living life from a different perspective in a different physical body. I know now how to get him back, but knowing and being able to do it and stay in it are two different things. The ego mind is very powerful, but only because most of us has only ever operated from that during our life. I just have to keep practicing and keep going. This is a Soul’s journey after all.
My reading material consists of:
Eckhart Tolle
Michael Singer
Neville Goddard
Allan Watts
