Pause
Pause is a very simple word to hear and pronounce. But when it appears in life, it shows you the worst part of your life. Currently, for the last one and a half months, my life has been put on pause.
It all started on 1 Jan 2026. On the eve of the new year, my manager started fighting with me. Day by day, the situation worsened, and I submitted my resignation. After my resignation, the situation got more serious, and I had to leave the office in the middle of my notice period.
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After that, I got my next job, but due to some personal reasons, I rejected it. Then I was diagnosed with some health issues, which put me on complete rest for 1 month. Now, I am sitting in my room appearing for interviews, taking rest, reading, and writing.
This scenario looks good, but I am feeling stuck. Sometimes I even want to cry, but I cannot. Each day starts with exercise and HR screening calls, then interviews, and ends with rejection.
Every day I break down; however, when I sit in meditation, I feel someone is sitting beside me. He tells me, I paused your life to rearrange it. Something big is waiting for you. Do not lose hope, be positive.
While writing this, I am not in a state of writing, but still I am writing. Whatever comes to my mind, I write it down. I am surrounded by family members and friends. In spite of this, I feel lonely. Now I know nobody is going to help me. Only my god Shivji will break this pause. I started hearing my inner voice.
I get out of the crowd, I started withdrawing my energy from people. I sit in meditation, hear my inner voice. We can’t control our life; instead of resisting the situation, we should accept it. Try to learn our lessons from that phase and move ahead. Life is a mixture of ups and downs. Sometimes we run, sometimes we walk, and sometimes we just stand still. Whatever may be the situation, we should not lose faith in the almighty. He can change our life in 1 sec.
