What If Every Prayer

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All the prayers that I have prayed

in my life,

all of them….

I would bring them forward into this moment

I would use a shovel, no, a bulldozer

to pile them up and have them join

with the prayer I now pray:

I would make a giant superprayer

that is the sum of all my conversations

with that whom I call God but I don’t care what

any body calls it .

I pray every day

partly out of terror

and partly out of a need to exercise

my prayer muscles,

for whatever it is that I pray to,

I fervently believe that it exists

and hears me in spite of my own feeble faculties.

I have prayed

great solemn emotional prayers

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and I have prayed brief

snippets of daily thought prayer

but all prayer whose motive

is truth, that prayer, that truthfulness

is worth something in my life.

That prayer is my essence

boiled down to a few musical phrases

played again and again so that

they are glued to my memory.

I have contributed to that prayer

as if to a great charitable project

whose goal is unimaginable.

If I could bring it forward into this moment

if I could imagine the ultimate goal of prayer

I would be that which is prayed to

and not that which is praying.

Some day perhaps I will unify

both concepts and I will vanish into a ball of light

but not today. I can’t even resolve this prayer,

I don’t know how to give it a punchy ending

so I guess it’s time to get up and go out

into the rain.