What is this emptiness inside of me?
I lay in my bed, cold and quite. Phone in my hand, so many plans, so many events, so many things that i could do. But i choose not to.
In a party, loud and bright, people singing, friends talking and dancing, i put up a smile, deep inside i wonder.. “What is this feeling inside me? I’m surrounded by people who love me and adore me, why do i feel like this”.
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I get home, sad and empty, my mother is cooking and my dad is reading. They both greeted me with a warm smile and invite me to sit.. “Oh God forgive me for what i’m about to do” i thought.
In my room dark and quite, i lay on the cold floor, suddenly all my emotion came out. As flowers began to grow from me, as years of emotion finally allowed to came out.
“Why do i hold this much thing in my heart, when i myself know i’m not capable of holding all of this” i cry.
Oh mother, will it get better?
