Original Thoughts
When am I the most ‘me’?
I am making September my own self declared writing month where I write something in my ‘journal’ style every day. Welcome to day 1!
I have about 15 mins for this as I do want to exercise before I start working. These days my sister & I are trying to live a healthier life. She wants to implement way too many things and it gets annoying most times but its also helpful. Aren’t most things like that?
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There is too much noise in the house. This activity should really happen in the morning without the noise and without other people’s thoughts. Preferably, when I wake up and when I am the most aware of myself / least aware of my self. That brought a smile to face knowing that it’s so true —
When I am the least aware of my physical self, is when I am the most “me”.
- When I wake up and am in a state of semi-sleepiness, when I still remember the scenes from my dreams, the people from the scenes, and sometimes even the feelings — that’s when I am the most myself. Everything after coming to consciousness is an alloy of my surrounding — and their needs, responsibilities, and emotions. My actions and feelings change with the demands of the day rather than a purpose or calling, a concept I still like to believe in.
- When I meditate, I take my attention to wherever the voice dictates. I can only do that if I surrender myself to the voice completely. The days I do surrender, it almost feels like I am completely in that one point when I am focusing. If I am focusing on my breath, I am my breath. If I am focusing on where the pain is in my body, I somehow become that pain. And with the next exhale when I let go, that pain relaxes a bit.
- When I am the state of flow, I can engage in an activity for hours without comfort, food, and even water. My physical needs are at their minimum. They don’t come in the way. I feel accomplished when I go to bed that night knowing I created something.
Is that why practicing your skill often triggers muscle memory development? So, the physicality of self doesn’t get in the way of us being more?
Thank you for reading this series of September thoughts. Let me know what you liked here!
