Growth
That word…it’s strange to me. What do you mean that now i can be a master of ceremony when, in the past, even just in front of the class, I had to try my best not to mumble and tremble? What do you mean now I find it comfortable to go to a cafe, a mall, or even another city by myself.
It’s weird for me how I have realized that I have grown and can make my own decisions. Maybe, for my parents, I am still their “baby.” And that makes me feel like “I am far away from myself.”
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I don’t have the same courage to have a big dream. I don’t even know who I was and who I am now. I’m stuck in the “middle”.
“And somehow being in the middle makes me feel like I am going nowhere.”
I can relate to it. The worst is…I feel stuck when I open social media and see that everyone has success, while here I am, lying on the bed and watching them and thinking that I am not even close to the person I want to be, but so far from the person I was.
And if you feel it now, you’re not alone. It’s normal to think about it; we’re still human, we can get tired and stop for a while, and suddenly feel left behind. It’s absolutely normal.
Rest as long as you like, but remember to go back. Be the big dreamer, and be the failure to learn. Trust yourself and don’t compare your past self with your present self; it’s different. You have to grow up and be brave, because your future awaits.
