First time Writer
I have always wanted to write, but being autistic and having ADHD, I tended to avoid starting the process. I never knew what to write about, so I shelved any idea of becoming a writer, and the years rolled by.
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One morning, as I lay in that twilight state between sleep and wakefulness, a voice clearly said to me, “Write about boundaries!” I jumped out of bed, full of excitement. That’s it — why didn’t I think of this before? I told myself.
Now, a while later and after too many cups of tea and sleepless nights, my book is complete.
There has been an internal battle throughout the process: struggling to focus, needing my environment to feel perfectly calm before I could even consider writing, and dreading rereading my own work in case I decided to delete everything and give up. Sometimes I would write only one or two sentences before closing my laptop because I wasn’t in the right headspace, or because my thoughts were tumbling over one another faster than I could express them. I simply couldn’t see the wood for the trees.
Despite all of that, I realised something important: I truly enjoy writing, and I am excited to begin my next book.
