Purgatory
I have recently uncovered layers of myself that might have been unconsciously ruling my life. With parental narcissistic abuse the amount of judgement criticism and hatred shown by a parent can actually become your own inner hatred. And sometimes healing activities can also become superficial if one does not dig deep into self hatred, something that can become entrenched within the body. It is so harsh and so painful that it feels like purgatory. Like you will always have that inner critic no matter what. What I need to do is work with the lower chakras, with the root cause, in an embodied way. My mindscape was avoiding this, seems like there is an overwhelming amount of pain in this. But my unconscious, my inner child needs this. Badly. Quiet time, to love to feel to forgive.
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Artwork : The Map of Hell painting by Botticelli is one of the extant ninety-two drawings that were originally included in the illustrated manuscript of Dante’s Divine Comedy
