In a certain moment of clarity, it dawned upon me that the reasoning and narration I had just put across a friend did not seem good to listen in retrospect. It was a simple and short reason for choosing group travel because of absence and general unavailability of friends. The conversation followed , but this statement that I had put , stayed with me.
I sat post the phone call and wondered , how much lonely do I feel to put that statement as a logic to choose group travel? Or how much this statement has been making me feel lonely?
Does my self talk consists of such not so positive logics for my actions or events happening around me? The perspective ,the mindset , the deduction mechanism or the self story , everything is driven by this reasoning at its core. This reasoning is foundational to all our actions and as they say, our actions become our life. This establishes the importance of our own “Self-Talk”.
This is good logic, but what about emotions, which surpass logics and reasoning. Here, came the wholistic thought of “Knowledge”.
The space of knowledge.
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I believe all of us have two space of operating in our daily life, First, A very native and base layer, which consists of reflexes, inherited behaviors , behavior culminating from memories and experiences. Other space is intellect, where rational analyzing and processing brings the output. In between there is a tiny slit where there is this river of knowledge. The space of knowledge. Not the information, not the wisdom, But pure Knowledge. Pure consciousness.
Our scriptures have put it in huge volumes for us, saints recite it. But somehow it is irritating, that this knowledge never really seems to be easy or practical. Like how are we supposed to be okay with losing someone close? We are not (our first space). Present. But how we transition and shape the intellect(second space) and hence our life is heavily dependent on the space between them.
Self Narration. Self Talk. Self Story. Multiple names one meaning, what do I talk to my self? What do I say to my consciousness? How do I communicate with this universe , inside of myself?
This is so ignored and unrealized , yet, it keeps shaping us , like the cells of body. Each thought. Each reason. Each sentence.
Hence, It is beautiful and divine to be the space of knowledge. Where we share our experiences as they are. Where we are curious. Where we hope. Where we live and breathe the space of knowledge.
In my naiveness, I think this space of knowledge consists of love, compassion and hope. But who knows?
What I do know for a fact is that Self Talk Is Very Important. “Why did this happen to me?” might need to transition into “What do I need to learn from this event , if not Can I just Be for a while?” I think beings who find life beautiful and meaningful find this space, nurture it and reside here permanently.
Hope.
