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The Poem I Wrote On The N Word

As part of my ancestral healing and past life work.

2 min readFeb 28, 2026

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N*gg*r / N*gg*

Lately I’ve heard this word
in my head
as a thing of terror
fearsome & loathsome
a single word that threatens
to disarm and dismantle
me & whole communities

the one word that breaks
so unspeakable and yet
always in our consciousness

how it’s especially in our music
proudly reclaimed
by those who have been disempowered
by it — now they sing it
speak it, like the casual word it is.

still, it’s a word that is anchored
to hatred and degradation
to violence and suppression
humanity’s shadows on display.

so who are we today?
we are hyperaware of it
ears constantly alert for it

for if the wrong person
says it, hell breaks loose —

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Laurel Sibanda
Laurel Sibanda

Written by Laurel Sibanda

Spiritual writer, poet and author - writing about healing, self-love, womanhood, spirituality, decolonising & more. https://laurelsibanda.com/