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I try to connect. I sit in front of the screen… I scroll through a few posts and stay still, staring at the last ones I made — the few reactions to photos and moments that, for me, are deeply emotional.
I try to find the melody that can express, in thirty seconds, how I feel, what I think, what I long for.
I try to connect — mistakenly — in machine mode, with my own feelings.
I try to express myself through photos and five-word sentences, just in case people get lost and move on. What kind of human being allows themselves to hide away, to shut down inside their own shell?
I know I’m not the only one.
I’m sure it happens to you too: you don’t realize you’re trying to share parts of yourself in an inhuman way, in the wrong place.
If this happens to you, maybe podcasts, books, drawings, or words are more your thing. You’re clearly someone who needs to communicate — you’re just doing it in the wrong space.
Because if, to be seen or heard, you have to shrink yourself down to five or ten words, that’s not your place.
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Besides, friends aren’t the ones who will always be there to listen.
None of that has anything to do with anything. That’s it.
Now forgive yourself for all the things you kept inside — the ones that ended up showing up as symptoms in your body.
And start today. You’ve got time until you die.
Back in the day, we would’ve probably been writers, singers, or illustrators. But instead, we dove headfirst into glowing screens and never stopped to explore other ways. Because it’s not that easy to say, “I’ll just get up and go write at the café on the corner.”
First, because it depends on your finances, sure.
And second, because the screens pull you in. Not everyone’s addicted, but most are neck-deep and can’t find a way out.
It’s already part of their lives.
The worst thing is, you don’t see it in the moment — it all hits you later, almost in one single blow.
But hey, it’s not all dark: nothing will ever give you more satisfaction than bringing your ideas and feelings into the physical world. I promise.
:)
