What is in a Name?

A little while ago I changed my name on a certain kink social media site from something that I felt didn’t really represent me at all (candyapplepink) to BoundbyChaos. I had known for months that a new name was coming- too much has changed over the last two years. I need to shed the shell that I had maintained for most of my life. While on my blog people I am called ChaosPixie, that felt wrong as well when I thought of the way I wanted to represent myself in the lifestyle.

So, what does BoundbyChaos mean and what does it say about me?

First, I wanted something that connected to the journey I have been making in rope. I have found so much joy and peace while I am in rope that it acts as a way to bind the anxiety and stress I often feel in my mind. In this way, the chaos in my mind is bound.

Second, chaos is something I create in both my life and my relationship. For some people, Dominant or submissive, this is overwhelming or frustrating. For my Miss, it is something she not only negotiated with me but actively encourages. She will tell anyone who asks that she is not a brat tamer but a brat encourager. When we first started dating, I was upfront that I was a brat and that I required my Dominant to have a safeword for bratting so that I know they have an easy way to speak up when it is necessary.

Chaos in our relationship is intentional, structured, and consensual in both directions. Miss is as big of a brat as I am. She applies chaos to the fun bits of our relationship frequently, pushing buttons on…