Love….
Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4–8
When I was a teenager I didn’t know the definition of love. I believed in love and I still believe in love but I didn’t love myself. Even the thought of looking at myself in the mirror disgusted me because I didn’t like what I seen. I didn’t like the girl that was looking back at me. Looking back then I never got to know myself. I only got to know the me that everyone else sees or the labels that everyone placed on me. Whether it be family or friends or even coworkers.
Oh Denae is quiet, she’s shy. She’s a good girl. She’s very soft spoken. I started to believe what I was hearing about me and thought that was me. The quiet and shy girl that stays to herself. But God knows me. God knows the daughter he created. I didn’t get to know me then.
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I got baptized February 21st 2021. I can admit that even then I still didn’t know myself. All I knew is that I wanted to get closer to God I wanted to build my relationship with God and I knew of God but I didn’t know God not for myself. When I graduated high school in 2019 and for the past 6 years of my life I was in and out of relationships looking for love and looking to be seen by others because I thought that that was all I was. It wasn’t until after my 23rd birthday that I looked at myself in the mirror and I apologized to God and myself. I never chose God and only God I chose others. I didn’t know how to be alone and it scared me because I’ve never learned how to love myself or even be by myself with God. Until I prayed I wrote down and gave all my desires, my heart, my wants and myself to God. I chose God and I want to get to know God for myself.
Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. 1 John 4:8
To get to know myself the Denae that God sees and that God created. I know that God is love and that love also waits. A question that came to my mind is how can you Love others but not love yourself. When our Father who created us in his image is Love and gave us Agape Love which is sacrificial Love. To know that God loved us so much that he sent his Son Jesus Christ into the world so that we may have eternal life through him. This is Love REAL LOVE!!!! God loves us, and he sent his son as a sacrifice to take away our sins. — 1 John 4:9–10
Now I can say that I love myself and every time I look in the mirror I love what God created. I know that I am seen and I am heard because My heavenly Father loved me first and on this journey of getting to know my Abba Father has allowed me to fall deeper in Love with him everyday.
