What If
What if we end up together?
What if he has already let go of his past, and what if i were to heal from all these lingering feelings?
What if he could be honest with himself, without trying to hide those confusing emotions?
If only he knew that i still hope to stand by his side—to listen to his stories, watch him play games, and have him teach me how to play them. I wonder, what would cross his mind?
Does he know that every day i check my phone hoping, “Oh a message from him,” only to realize it’s just a lie my mind creates so i won’t be disappointed by the waiting?. It feels so suffocating when you say you don’t want to get close to anyone right now, even though just a month ago you were trying to get close to me. A month ago you were still chasing after me, but now what? Suddenly you’re into another girl without me knowing.
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Honestly… that night, i was more than a little disappointed. I still hope there will be a moment where the two of us can talk to each other without any awkwardness, and without holding back our feelings.
Even if you told me to wait for you, I would. I’d wait while working on myself, so that i can be a better match for you in the future.
I hope.. there’s still a place for me in your heart. Even though it seems unlikely for someone you’ve only considered a friend for a month to ask for something like this.
Even if you choose her over me, all i can say is, “I could have treated you so much better than she ever will.”
But.. the answered is…
Gracias por hablar de tus sentimientos, está totalmente bien.
Pero lo siento mucho, no puedo corresponder a tus sentimientos.
