Intro
Hello everyone, Himanshu here — currently a 3rd-year student pursuing a Bachelor of Engineering in Computer Science and Engineering.
The journey from 21 August 2023, the first day of university, to this date (3 November 2025) has been great — full of joy, learning about life, and learning about myself.
This is not an excuse or justification, but something important that needs to be documented — so when I read this text in future years, I remember how I overcame challenges and kept fighting to win. I am here to fulfill the duties I’ve been given in this life. I am not in a position to lose; I must win.
I have overcome only with the strength of my Sadh Gurudev Shree Premanand Ji Maharaj and with the blessings of my parents. From the day I entered university and stepped out of home, it was only His strength that carried me this far.
In this time, I have faced several health issues — migraine pain, chickenpox (not severe, but I was at home for a month), a hairline fracture in my right leg which caused pain when I walked, pilonidal sinus surgery (after which I was on bed rest for 45 days), and later, nose blockage due to a deviated septum with a spur on the left side and infections in both nostrils which inflamed the nasal nerves. In addition to these, there were many days when I had fatigue, weakness, or low energy, and some skin infections occasionally (maybe around 2–3 times that I remember).
I am a person who has not had self-confidence, doubted myself continuously, felt guilt and regret over small issues, continuously judged myself, lost hope in myself, and felt worthless.
Being an overthinker made things worse — it caused anxiety and panic over small thoughts.
There are many days when I have suicidal thoughts like just normal thoughts. But with the grace of Sadh Gurudev and my parents’ blessings, I stood strong — bas Maharaj ne bacha liya. Thanks to all this time when I was hopeless and in a situation which I cannot explain, I found Shree Sadh Gurudev Maharaj.
Now I am determined to show up and achieve my life goals. Gurudev is there to guide me; I just have to follow His orders.
Now I’ll focus on learning as much as I can about technology and diving deeper into this field in the remaining time of my graduation.
I will be learning core subjects of computer science, Data Structures and Algorithms (the math of Computer Science), learning web development and making projects (in web dev with some AI features integrated), working on research and review papers, exploring cybersecurity, learning cloud computing, and the basics of DevOps. I’ll also work on improving my communication skills.
This is the phase where I’ll explore and decide if tech is truly for me.
If I continue in tech, I’ll also explore automation, AI, machine learning, data science, data analysis, and software architecture (through system design). Then I’ll decide which role fits me best. I might also pursue a Master’s in any of the domains to gain deeper knowledge, either in India or abroad.
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If not, then I’ll explore other paths —
If I pursue Masters in technology and if i do not like Corporate , I may go to the field of academia. Maybe a Master’s in International Relations and Public Affairs to work in policy-making, or a Master’s in Journalism to become a journalist, or prepare for government jobs and maybe the UPSC — or pursue an MBA if nothing suits me well.
Major goals for the next 6 months:
- Get placed or find an internship for any tech role by May 2026.
- If I get a chance, I will also try to get an internship in a travel and tour agency, hospital, hotel, event management agency, or any public outreach role — to gain exposure to real-world events and to know about my communication and expression.
- And maybe try to go on a trip in the last semester of my graduation — don’t know where, but it will be in the mountains for trekking.
