When you’re angry at the world
When you finally believed nothing can get any worse, a final blow kills your last flame.
You’re left angry at the world. Forgiving without getting an apology is hard. It’s easy to say time will heal but how do you survive each second that passes by like a blade.
What do you do?
First, you can write it all down in detail. What happened? What did you do? Why did this happen to you? The point is: You can’t repeat your mistake ever again.
Then you rip paper. Aggressively. I don’t know. There is something so soothing about this. The sound. The feeling. You feel empowering somehow.
Or! You look at Groot’s pure cuteness all day.
If you’re religious, you pour it out to God. He knows everything but he wants you to tell him. Asking his forgiveness for having ill feelings against someone may help.
But sometimes you’re so traumatized, you need physical action to feel anything at all.
So you pack and go.
To somewhere you can fall asleep to the sound of waves and wake up to a view like this.
Of course, the travel is better with people who truly care about you. You can remember what it feels to be truly appreciated.
Look at how grand nature is. It makes our problems seem small which is a nice feeling. It’s not a big deal. Psssh.
Brush it off and be okay.
Anger consumes you. It’s overwhelming so you forget the million things you can be thankful for. Hold a grip to those because this is the only way out.
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You can start writing what you’re grateful for. It can be little things like:
- Your family who are healthy physically and mindfully
- Baby Groot
- All the mangoes in this world
- For old friends who are happy to see you after so many years apart
- Milky ways and auroras
- Your Canon 60D
- Your friends who come a long way just to have cold beer with you
- Being able to travel if you save up
- Your two legs that help you swim
