The Choices

“Why?” she sobbed, jerking her head away from his hand. “So you can remember.”

She’s always been depressed. Almost like a mystery. She remembered that first time she entertained it. It was almost 30 years ago. She made the choice that involved losing a child.

Why does no one talk about that? The first one that came into pop culture was the musical “Hamilton.” Losing a child is unimaginable.

Lyrics

There are moments that the words don’t reach
There is suffering too terrible to name
You hold your child as tight as you can
And push away the unimaginable

The moments when you’re in so deep
It feels easier to just swim down
The Hamiltons move uptown
And learn to live with the unimaginable

I spend hours in the garden
I walk alone to the store
And it’s quiet uptown
I never liked the quiet before
I take the children to church on Sunday
A sign of the cross at the door
And I pray
That never used to happen before

If you see him in the street
Walking by himself, talking to himself, have pity
Philip, you would like it uptown, it’s quiet uptown
He is working through the unimaginable