I Can Change
When I think about tomorrow
I think about the sun setting behind the trees
The way it changes the color of the sky
Like my tears changes the color of my soul when I cry
When I think about tomorrow
I think about if I will see the moon in the sky
Shining bright like my smile used to be when watching anime after school
When I think about tomorrow I wonder how I will get through today
What affirmations should I recite to refocus my mind
What dream did I have last night that still has me in a bind
Tomorrow
Tomorrow? Will I make it to tomorrow?
Yes
Because I claim it
Yes
Because dammit I am determined to make it
Like I’ve told myself before, I will no longer fake it
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My smile is real
My laugh is genuine
No longer the teenager who use to hide her feminine
Feminine side, feminine glide, because I’ve learned walking in my feminine should be shown with pride
I was raised to be masculine
A do for myself mentality
Yes I did ask for it and
Yes it was for my protection
But how could it be when people criticized my femininity as weak, too emotional, too soft
That’s when my tomorrows looked bleak
To nervous to even laugh out loud because maybe I sounded too sweet
But I thank the universe for tomorrow because in one of them I came across a soul who allowed me to be me
In some of them I found my tribe that let my heart move to it’s own beat
Tomorrow
When I think about you
I am grateful
— — Poem
— -Written in the hopes of helping another embrace themselves and unlearn what they were taught.
