Teenage
What is wrong with me?
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When I was a child I only thought about how I would not be so anxious when I will grow up. Well that was not my fault. It was the environment I was brought up in. I was a lonely child who always thought that he has no one to rely on. Then my teenage started. Before I even knew my mood was changing I was becoming more self aware more self conscious judgemental. I never really understood what was happening to me. “What is wrong with me?” I used to say this ten times a day. Nothing was really wrong. I was just a child. On top of that a south-asian teenager. Children born in a south-asian families know how a mood swing can result in punishment or scolding that you will not forgot even to the end of your life or how a big tantrum such as slamming the door or throwing something can result in, in most cases a beating. No one has ever been able to understand teenage. Its such a vulnerable age that is needed to be dealt with care. But it is just as much ignored. Because of which mostly teenagers stop reacting they start judging themselves. “What is wrong with me?” ,they start asking themselves. They start sinking in. Hiding their emotions.
In my opinion a lot of health and psychological issues can be prevented if children are given proper guidance in teenage. Guidance is what teenagers need. You don’t need to ignore their tantrums or emotional periods. You don’t have to reply “I love you” at the end of every thing teenagers might throw at you. Guide them through it. Talk to them, sit with them, tell them how much they matter or their behaviour really affects the world. Tell them why they don’t need to be an adult just to fit in. How their recklessness is what is important in their age. Teenagers learn more and better by being reckless than pretending to be wise or reading a quote from somewhere. That is also why most teenagers feel lost because they are not adults. They don’t need to be one. No matter how awful it might sound when you are a teenager you should reap the benefits of it. Rely on your parents unconditionally. Ask them for favours. And i know it all sounds awful but it is true. The awful truth.
You don’t have to carry the world on your shoulders. go on share it with someone. Laugh off your problems that anxious feeling nothing is that serious. Do the things that you love. after a few years you will be an adult that too for a lifetime no one will forgive you or your mistakes because of your age. This time that you are in you are infinite. Run on the streets, chase the racing cars, get that hair dye be all that you find ridiculous and embarrassing. And for the teenagers who are from struggling families. You are going to make it. Don’t be so anxious. Out of the whole day you spend for others take out even at least ten minutes to appreciate yourself. To do what you love. Watch a movie. Paint. Sing. Laugh it off. Live like a teenager. Without shame or embarrassment. You are infinite.
