Non-linear
July 11th, 2026
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I had no idea that accepting non-linear progression could be so difficult. I think about and analyze it, and in theory I know the gist of it, yet I cannot bring myself to fully accept it. I know that I, just like pretty much everybody else, was conditioned to believe that a linear, straight-path progression is the only way to move in life, and our “success” in life depends on following that upward line. Linear progression is easy to understand and compartmentalize and sell to people. And my life experience so far played a part in conditioning me to accept linear progression as a fact. I was developing on a straight and upward line; then my line pointed directly downward, but still the progression was linear — straight to self-destruction. Once I tackled my addiction, my progression changed upward, and that is what I expected to continue. I see that to keep my life progression linear and upward, I have to move sideways (or maybe even a step back) from a professional standpoint. I had no idea how hard it is for me to accept this reality. Slowly, I am getting there. Slowly is my forte; I no longer rush into emotional changes but keep my balance. The acceptance will come, eventually, as it does with everything. I might have forgotten that life is something we work on, and sometimes it can be hard to make a decision knowing that the consequences are entirely on me. I will come to accept this as well. Eventually.
