Love is just dumb luck
I have thought about this thing a lot, like alarmingly lot, and yes, this is what I agree with, that love, is shear, dumb luck. You don’t need to look good to find love, you don’t need to have a good physique, you don’t have to be smart, you don’t have to be funny, you just need lots and lots of luck.
Believe me, I have tried everything. I spent years trying to look like the ideal guy, and I kind of got there, but I still did not get what I expected I would upon getting there. I had a massive glow up in everything, in looks, in personality, in emotionality, in my thinking power, deep within myself, in me, I made myself better at everything. But I still watched a girl I had a crush on come very very close to me and then make some other guy her partner. I have seen my best friend whom I have loved since like, high school, tell me about her crush, send bestie reels to me and it kills me everytime but I can’t stop talking to her. I have literally had my heart broken or have broken the heart of every girl I ever loved. So I say this from experience, that all you need to achieve love, is luck.
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I have tried everything, I have tried maintaining relationships, I have tried texting first, I have tried not texting first, I have tried giving lots of attention, I have tried being nonchalant, I have tried texting first, I have tried not replying for days, and nothing has ever worked for me. I thought I found love for like a split second, but the minute I realised I was in love, it all just goes away. It’s like the universe does not want me to find it. Or maybe it is waiting for the right time, idk. But someday, I hope, I will get the luck I need and find the person that fits my checklist at the right time
There was this girl okay, and she was absolutely fucking perfect. I mean, if you asked an average guy, he would have said she did not look good, but she looked so fucking pretty to me. She checked all my boxes, we spent a very very intimate night together, and then, that’s it. We talked and walked all night, and after that it was just over. And then, 3 months later, she had a boyfriend. My point is, and this is not advice, this is just something I want to tell myself to make me feel better, I am not the problem. The universe is. It just does not want me to do this shit right now. It wants me to find out and be who I am first and then it will find me a partner
So that’s what I tell you all to do. Be yourself. Don’t look for love. You will see it yourself, it will come to you, like a dog whom you smiled at, like a kid to whom you made a funny face, like your mom, who you lie to all the time about having had lunch, and after the right time, like the love of your life, for whom you waited so long for, and finally had enough luck to get.
