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Redeemed by the Light of Love: Continuing Story
Don’t Weep for Me, Weep for yourselves
Dear Reader,
It is now a few months since I wrote on Medium — particularly on this Series related to Christ’s words to the Daughters of Jerusalem… ‘Don’t Weep for Me, Weep for yourselves.’
This is an update on the meandering course of Christ’s Instruction in my hands, faltering while carrying the Cross of needing to move, twice!!.
To remind you, I had been prompted to investigate a PhD making the Words of Christ to the Daughters of Jerusalem my focus — though no ‘thesis’ ever occurred to me. It seems somewhat arrogant to put any other framework round the Words of God which seemed a form of instruction within an acknowledgement of a need- a fact of life out of death? It was as if Christ was giving them an answer to their problem within His rather enigmatic instruction. What relevance did it have for us?
None of the female, or male, potential supervisors that I found or encountered, and asked, wanted to do it. However as part of my ‘knocking, seeking and asking’ at the time, I was writing about various facets of the statement and I did become less intimidated by it.
Prayer about what I should do did not directly give me an answer, however I found myself diverted from searching more diligently for a supervisor, and followed the opportunity to make the process of Weeping for ‘themselves’ into a Guided Journal — following something of the Way that Christ had led me on, which had been written up in journals, then three books, ‘He Heals the Broken Hearted’*.
Within the first mini-course of this ‘Create a journal/planner for your Business’, I followed the guidance for constructing the Journal/planner. As with many on-line processes I come up against mal-functions (or should I say- ‘creative alternative’ functions) of my ways of thinking and functioning. So what I was able to do, was always an ‘estimate’ of the guidance we were given, but I was aware that despite the somewhat alternative process, the end result was always in my Heart and Mind. I simply had to trust God and the Holy Spirit for the final outcome. And I was always able to articulate specific questions I needed answers for.
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When we had constructed the rough design of the Guided Journal we needed to put on the flesh and put it on to ‘Canva’. I had used this design App before but for single items — not a full book and there were many functions I did not know!
So, once again, I did what I could and started typing up the content of the pages onto a Word document — because I knew that I couldn’t ‘write’ while sorting out boxes and other design elements.
In fact the whole process was a wonderful experience of loving Trust between God and I, lived out through the creator of this course, Claire, the Holy Spirit, my willing Heart and soul, and the elements of my brain that worked in such specific ways. Only because I had already done much weeping for myself, was I able to let the Holy Spirit guide me without despair, or giving up. I did persevere, accepting help at various key points from Claire especially at the end, to ensure I was putting it on Amazon in ways that would serve.
I have the ‘Author copy’ in my hands (metaphorically of course) and am adding the ‘creative/gentle’ touches to the original so that it speaks ‘the Truth in Love’ and can be published later this week.
I have created this through the Way, the fullness of the Holy Spirit bringing Love into ‘tough’ areas of pain and human desolation; and the Strength of Christ giving me courage and hope to persevere to the glory of God the Father. He grounded the experience in concrete situations and questions.
It explicitly takes the Journaler, from a willingness to accept the Love of God to face and accept the suffering that arises day by day, (from trauma wounds) without running away any more…in order to ask Christ into the pains, losses and burdens…willing to be healed and changed through the Holy Spirit.
Over the 4 months of the Journey the Journaler is invited into greater and greater maturity as Christ and the Holy Spirit bring their Healing Presence into Heart, Mind, Body and Will of the Journalers, as their ‘will for Good’ willingly surrenders their old life, for that of their Humanity and Divinity in Christ.
I will now place the Journal in God’s hands, and in the hands of those who love souls.
With the explicit expectation that the Journaler will work with conscious awareness of God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, I also have confidence to put it onto platforms of those who care for traumatised, and abused souls. And for those who truly desire to love God with all they are. He says He will make a Way in the desert.
I don’t know where this will lead….that is God’s work to bring this to the attention of those who are both willing, and have need. May they go from, ‘Weeping’ and feeling the weight of death and loss (as I did) to working in Hope in Christ with the Guided Journal as this dear soul has done:
The intentional prompts encouraged me to slow down, reflect honestly, and invite the Holy Spirit into my pain. Through journaling, patterns and wounds surfaced that I had never taken the time — or made the space — to acknowledge before. It also uncovered abandonment issues I didn’t know I struggled with, and suddenly many of my reactions and behaviors made sense. Another powerful revelation was realizing that God had been with me throughout my entire life — faithfully walking with me, protecting me, and preparing me along the way, even in seasons I didn’t recognize His presence. Ultimately, the deepest healing came from inviting the Holy Spirit into those places of hurt. When I surrendered them to Christ, I experienced true freedom, restoration, and a stronger, more trusting walk with Him.
Christ Himself never considered Himself equal to God while He was in human form, and neither can we. But we can believe in His promises… and go through the doors He opens. That is what this Journal is doing. Once it is published — ‘Your Will be done Lord…’. ‘Into Your hands I commit my spirit.’
*Trilogy ‘He heals the Broken Hearted’:
https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B0BRDJ3XMM?binding=paperback&ref=dbs_dp_sirpi
1)Treasures of Darkness: Facing the Pain and Finding the Light
2) Your Will Be done: Beyond Powerlessness Fear — Life Revealed in Love
3) Children of God: Embracing the Life-Giving Cross in Joy and Hope in Eternal Life
