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About Me
Why I research Occultism
Little girl lost in the woods — that’s me at different times in my life. Do you see the bewilderment in her eyes, like — What the f — k? What did I do wrong? Most women can totally relate to this, men too. Usually, it comes down to external factors (the woods) in extreme conflict with our inner being. Now, clearly, we all need direction in our formative years. And there are plenty of those in authority who will try to prove to you that they are the ones to do it, i.e., parents, priests, teachers, bosses, politicians, etc. You know where I’m coming from. But — I have always questioned whether they really know what they are talking about. I will give a few instances.
I was raised Catholic, and I have a memory of being in the old farm truck with my dad while running some errands in town. I had him all to myself, so I asked him who Jesus was. He told me Jesus was God. I didn’t question him further because I thought that was a stupid answer and I was too young to question him further. This was a serious question, and he wasn’t taking me seriously. I had decided that God made the universe and the story about Jesus was about a man. It made no sense. A regular man didn’t or couldn’t have made the earth, trees, stars, etc. So, Dad was demoted somewhat from the position of the all-knowing one.
