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Even in Darkness, My Heart Is Full
Can I allow myself to exist here without guilt or shame?
Life is full of ups and downs, we all know this. And when we’re in the depths of the downs it is no doubt uncomfortable. But we can still find joy in these moments because we also know that the low moments are never forever.
Recently I’ve been working on allowing myself to exist in the lower moments without wishing them away. Feeling lost isn’t the end of the world — it’s a gift to feel at all.
Of course it would be nice, comfortable, and easy to always feel positive, happy and free, but that wouldn’t be real life. Life is full of ups and downs — pain, challenges, and death will always be part of it.
There is a lot in my life that needs to die in order to clear space for more of what and who I want to be. And I don’t mean just positive, happy and free. I want to be an embodied human being. Full of emotions, experiences, and pure existence.
I have many limiting beliefs and identities that cause me to forget that I am simply a normal human being which encompasses the duality of positive, negative, happy, sad, light and dark. These limiting beliefs and identities that I have either created or have been given to me by external sources tell me that I am separate from life.
