Alright, so
Let’s try this.
Hollow and bare, watching you from the rooftop from the top of the stairs.
I stare at you and think of me, trying to recall, what it is that I had said before. I did say something, but what was it that I meant?
The words may be lost in time but their meaning will carry over to the next ones.
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It is here where I reside, but where this here is, is a mystery beyond me. I wonder, but what do I wonder about? I wish to find the place that I would call home, but I am scared that all I can have is the road. Life is a journey, but does it have a destination? I’m tired of travelling, I would like to lay down and rest, but all I have here on the ground is mud and pebbles. Not too comfy, I have to say. But the body can only go so far before giving in and fading into absence.
That being said, I don’t know what else to say. What else to look for, where else to look. I will keep going for now but I have no idea what I am doing it for or how or what or whatever. I’d like to feel comfy and not have this headache, but all you, my dear reader can do is watch. Or read, to be more clear. It is up to me how to change my situation. And that’s all there it was. Just a scrapbook entry I was not prepared for landing my brother I’m still sorry soon I’ll be sixty years old and then the pattern repeats but now it has been broken and something else happens, except we can bring it back and keep following the pattern but what’s the point. I am just writing what’s on my mind, and my mind is a bowl of spaghetti. But it’s all I have got, the only trace, the only hint of me that has remained anymore.
I will write a few more sentences and then I will publish this and probably nobody or like 1 or maybe even 2 people will read this and then I will likely forget about this writing by the end of the week. But who knows, the pink elephant might, right?
Alright well, it was nice talking to you and maybe this could give you a glimpse of how I may truly feel.
Thans you for reading ❤
