Turning
Everybody wants somebody
A little more than they should
Everybody’d take that body
If Everybody could
Everybody makes mistakes
Everybody hides
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I have often thought about the mistakes I have made when I was absolutely sure— and willing to lay my hands on the fire if necessary for it — that it is the best decision that someone could make if he was put in the same position. This brings me to the imminent scene in which the protagonist of the film has a moment of lucidity and the viewer sees the whole plot of the story rewound on the screen until the moment of error. There is a poem, called “cause I’ll be back in my feet someday”, by the Italian poet Claudio Bertoni, and it says: “I just turned / one of those black bugs / that here in Concón /always stay upside down. / Peeing a while later / I think about how good it would be / that a giant finger would appear / and turn me around too”. Sometimes I try to imagine another version of the movie, doing the things I could have done if a giant finger had appeared to turn me in the right direction, or any other direction at all. When I sleep alone and there is no one to hug, when it is five in the morning and the blankets are not enough, I think maybe, and just maybe, we want — or we miss — someone more than we should.
The original text was published in Spanish in February in 2016 under the title “Vuelta”
