Acceptance…
Good morning!
I woke slowly this morning…
Waking at 4 AM will do that to you. The world is so quiet at this hour. There is nothing urgent to accomplish. No important meetings to attend…
Just me and my thoughts…
So peaceful. It feels good…
There were times in life that waking early stirred different feelings and emotions from me…
Feelings of panic. Of fear. Of anxiety. Of sadness…
I look back on those times, at that person that I was, and I feel relieved…
Relieved to not be facing those feelings on a daily basis. On a moment to moment basis…
Perhaps not gone forever, I, through much practice, work, and experience, realize that those feelings are not who I am…
Just passing thoughts and moments, that will indeed pass…
So perhaps I should be cherishing the calm I feel today? At this moment?
Hopefully I am grateful enough for the good moments. The quiet times…
For right now…
So here I sit. It is now 4:41 AM. It is Tuesday, June 14th…
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It is still dark out, but the skies are just starting to brighten in the eastern skies…
My dog Holly is here. She patrols the yard slowly. Perhaps she too is only half awake at this early hour…
My coffee is brewing in the kitchen. I anxiously anticipate my first sip…
I am momentarily startled by my next door neighbor heading off for the day. We exchange pleasantries, which feels a bit funny as I sit in my front yard in the dark with my computer on my lap. He must be an early riser as well?
I wonder what he thinks of me, his new neighbor, sitting outside in the dark, typing away at the computer at such an early hour? His thoughts are his own, I realize. I am sure he has his own life, his own emotions, his own concerns, that occupy him…
As I look up from my lap top, I notice the skies are brightening just a bit above the trees…
A train can be heard rumbling through downtown. I must be a freight train, as it has been passing through for quite a bit…
So what does today hold? It is already 72 degrees and humid, with temperatures reaching 95 degrees by the end of the day…
How these temperatures will impact my day, I am not sure…
I will do my best to experience them in a positive fashion. Hopefully not let the heat get me down. Perhaps I can even enjoy the heat?
For life comes at us. And life changes. It is our choice whether we deal with those changes in a positive manner or not…
Whether we enjoy the moment or not. Whether we learn something from the challenging experiences…
Whether we accept that we are exactly where we are supposed to be at this time…
For life goes much better with acceptance…
Without the fighting. Without the struggle. Without the desperate inner desire for things to be different…
Because once we learn to accept things as they are?
We realize that life is pretty beautiful just as it is…
Ken
