Bump news. Week 14. Ready to bloom.
OK so now it’s officially the second tri (according to the books they think one extra week 13 in limbo is fine).
I’m definitely feeling much more normal and consequentially less pregnant now which is nice and weird at the same time. There’s definitely something bumpy going on now though, so in that sense I do feel quite pregnant — but not quite enough not to feel a fraud when wearing my ‘Baby on Board’ badge, without the accompanying obvious lump in my clothing.
Again as I am yet to tell work this is working out for me — but I’m quite ready to get my bloom on a little. For some reason (and this could be the mistrust of body again) I just don’t expect I’m going to get the bloom thing. Like weirdly I just don’t expect my body to know how and somehow think it won’t do this bit properly. Well obviously it can and he is doing something as there’s a lump and hard stuff going on.
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I’m also feeling the weirdest fluttery feelings which cannot be the baby just yet, but it’s very odd like trapped wind that isn’t painful, but higher than the intestines and it tends to come on in the evening. Still though I like to pretend it’s Bruce and we have a chat when it’s just the two of us with some belly strokes for good measure. Kind of like a little cat sat on my lower stomach.
I’m going a bit mad on the baby finances and really trying to stick hard to my monthly budgets. Day 4 and it’s going well. It’s such a control win I am loving it. Fingers crossed this will give me chance to save a little more than expected initially, and to generally live with what I need more than want.
It’s also definitely becoming a lot more real, and I think for Ben too. I’ve told a few more friends (and some more work friends oo err!). Ben and I are both getting emotional at other bump and birth scenarios and I’ve even finished reading my pregnancy book now. I’ve started listening to parenting audio books, my favourite being the Danish way of Parenting. It bangs on about all my favourites such as empathy, trust, separating behaviour etc. I’ve been really into it and sharing a lot with Ben who seems equally excited to listen!
Looking at my progress photos there’s a slight increase but generally I don’t feel like I have put too much weight on. If I have then I am carrying it well anyway. All will be revealed at the week 16 appointment in two weeks. This is consequently the week I am telling James, once he finally clears with HR my probation stuff and I have a secure contract! So next week will be another filler week in the lead up to the following exciting bit :)
