Status quo
23rd of March, 2026.
It has been a while since I have written anything. Drafts are lining up on Medium, a lot of them from 2021. And to be honest, I was shocked at how good they were. Interesting. Me?
2021 was a pivoting year for me. I have just broken up with my long term boyfriend, and thrown myself in another relationship quite fast. I was lost. Looking for direction. I guess I was not happy where life was taking me and needed to take action fast. I had just finished my master’s thesis after quite some time trying to make it work. Corona had just happened. My energies was off.
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… and then I found purpose.
In the midst of chaos, I opened Youtube and found Bunda Arsaningsih’s channel. SOUL Reflection Meditation. I had just come back from a 10-day Vipassana retreat, trying to find meaning to everything. I was seeking, but didn’t know what I was looking for.
I guess it is true what they say, when the student is ready the teacher will appear. Not before, not after. And I walked the path, even if I did not know where this path would lead me. Sometimes, the soul know more than our logic. I learned to follow the deeper pull of life towards the light. I learned a lot about myself these last years, and I am finally ready to write about these experiences.
Because to have a teacher to guide you, to show you, and to expose you, changed everything for me. I am grateful to have this chance in life. Because my whole life I have been wanting for my soul to find rest. Peace. Nirvana. Moksha. Ending the cycle of death and rebirth. Ending my suffering.
And so my spiritual journey accelerates. My perspectives broadened. My heart burst open.
