Hey, its me
Hey all, I start this page today so that when I look back after a year or so, I should feel that I have built something on my own. Building something for me doesn’t mean I have to earn, or I have to get recognised everywhere. It is something I should have certain things myself, on my own. So this page is one of them. Actually it is the first thing I am trying to build on my own. I really don’t care about any followers list. Even with 10 or 20, I will be happy and satisfied because as I said, this is something I am building on my own.
Why I am doing this now?
As a girl, I always want to be independent and recognised based on my potential. I know about my potential. But others? No, they don’t know. Is it their fault? No, its mine. I failed to explore my potential, keeping myself hidden, waiting for the right time, hesitate to show my face outside, shy to talk in public etc. But today I felt that, those walls should be broken and the right time is “now”. I felt that it is the time to put an end to so called fear and hesitation and start to do things on my own. I felt that it is the time to change my identity on how I think of myself. I felt that it is the time to bring out my inner spirit, which this little girl has always hidden inside.
Why today I felt it so strongly that I started this page?
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Series of events today made me feel that I am not worth of anything. But the actual truth is I am worth of thousand many things. But I have to believe it. That’s the secret. When others treated me just like another girl, I always felt, this is not how I should be treated. So the best thing I can do is to explore my potential and working on things I am capable of. One of the them is writing. Today I decided, even though humiliation hit my face I should keep my head up and walk towards my ideal self. Obviously, building medium page bigger or becoming a great writer is not my goal. The thing is, today I came out of my comfort zone. Yes I did it. For months, I have been thinking about starting a medium page and writing articles or blogs. I have never done it. But today, I did it. Because few days back, I have realised that whenever I came out of my comfort zone previously and did things, it rewarded me greatly. The only setback is, it was momentary. I will be out of my comfort zone may be for a day and next day I will go back to my cocoon to have my routine life. But now I am doing something on public platform to keep myself pushing and come out of my four walls, every damn day.
Lessons I would like put it on the record
Firstly, Focus on yourself. I have read this line in many platforms, but recently I have realised it. Reading and Realising is not same. When you read something, you will store it as information, when u realise something, you will act on it and eventually action will speak. Secondly, Build yourself. Know what you are capable of and start building something, even if it is poor, on your own. Knowing your potential and building on it, is worth the energy and attention you spend. Thirdly, humiliation is fine. Don’t focus on the future that you may get humiliated. Even if it happens, it’s fine. Learn the lesson and go on. Turn that humiliation into power and conquer next time. Fourthly, belief is everything. Belief system is architecture of life. What you believe, consciously or sub-consciously, will manifest and that’s how your life will grow and end. If you can’t believe in something or yourself, fake it in the initial stage and then make it. It will work. Fifthly, Have the courage to step out and explore on what you feel you are capable of. If you know you are good at something, do that hell as a first thing. Have the courage or you can call it as audacity. The audacity to take the first step. Because most of them fail here. Sixthly, don’t allow others to build your identity. This is very important because, people out there are very much capable of putting their understanding about us, on us. But that version is only part of us, that is not wholly us. So, when we let others to build our identity in our mind, it becomes the wall that stop us from knowing who we actually are. The solution would be knowing thyself wholly.
In the end
I may sound like motivational speaker. But I am not. Here I will not share anything, unless I experience it myself. I will not explain anything, until I, myself, realise it. So far what you have read above is my realisation and so in the future will be. I admired and drew inspiration from various beautiful souls in the world. I will definitely share those things in upcoming writings so that you can learn something from that, as a human. So in the end, I am just a little girl, who is trying to come out of my comfort zone and do things and stuffs I like, because every time I come out of my cocoon, I instil, directly or indirectly, in my deep heart and mind, that I am capable of greatest things. . That’s it for today. Lezzz Goooo.
