My Sandra

I’m sorry we have to send you out there every day. But it’s where your beauty is planted.

It’s such a dark depth I’ve reached.

Somehow this person has come into my life at this particular time. She arrived just in time. I never thought I’d meet someone who’d love me like this. But I have.

Why does this coincide with the most difficult time of my life?

It’s hard to trust the path, but I know I have to.

Maybe that’s exactly why she’s here. To be my angel to guide me through this.

I’ve broken down sobbing more in the past year than I have the rest of my entire 58 years. Five times today.

My entire family has cut me off. I don’t understand why but they clearly do.

It’s the most severe pain of my entire life.

But My Sandra is here now. Not to replace them, but to help me navigate this loss. To hold me when I break. To share the perfect song. To send a loving text. To let me know she’s got me.

It’s going to be okay. And I’m going to work really hard just staying in the moment. Even when it hurts. Because I know there is a purpose in all of it including that. And I must do my best to appreciate the beauty of all of this unfolding as it was meant to be.