When you have a bad astrology chart
Supposedly, there is no such thing as a “bad astrology” chart.
Whoever was the first person to say that clearly did not look at how many squares I have or my Chiron placement.
More squares means more lessons. And more internal chaos, and sometimes external problems as well.
I really believe I have a bad astrology chart.
I had a lot to overcome emotionally and relationship-wise more than anything, with little to no help from anyone. I did get “help” from some karmic connections but even those were painful at some level. (For more on that see my article on Vertex in the 8th house.)
Why it sucks to be a Libra ascendant in relationships
- All Libra ascendants have a 7th house ruled by Aries
- Meaning, no matter what your other placements are, all Libras get a challenging partner, Aries.
- I would think that the divorce rate and breakup rate for all Libras everywhere would be very very high…
My outcome: A series of bad relationships for years and years. I mean, I really was wondering why I couldn’t get it right. This isn’t statistical probability, this is attraction. Sweet innocent Libra attracts Aries-like partners. Typical Aries being aggressive, mean and immature.
In other words, losers.
So what did I do? I waited a very long time to get married. I waited until I had good boundaries to stop attracting these immature people. And I grew a lot in that process itself.
And if I did not wait, I definitely would have been divorced, or in an abusive relationship, or even worse. So, since I never had to go through that, I am lucky.
What makes an astrology chart bad, challenging and difficult.
- Bad placements
- Squares on personal planets
- Oppositions
More squares, more chaos.
What are some examples of bad placements:
- Chiron in the 7th — it’s like having no friends, no partner, etc.
- Saturn in the 12th — causes major sleep problems, health problems
- Pluto in the 12th — also sleep problems and some other losses
- Lilith in the 12th — more 12th house drama, also unconventional, doesn’t follow the crowd, the unpopular kid
- Cancer placements — Deep and emotional. Emotionally immature cancer placements use manipulation or attract it
- Scorpio placements — Same as Cancer, more fighty, just as crazy, and attracts the same
And now, let’s add some more weight! Squares!
- Venus square Pluto — ruined my love life for I say, 18 years until I met my husband, I was close to 40
- Venus square Lilith — ruined my love life too
- Saturn square Moon — ruined my self esteem
- Chiron square Mercury — destroyed my voice
- Vertex square Mercury — keeps destroying my voice…
- MC square Mars — Because…the universe thought I could take even more drama
- Uranus square sun — crazy and unpredictable in your ego
- Uranus square Mercury — crazy and unpredictable in your voice
I feel like I have a decent Mercury placement. I am after all a writer, so there was something good in the chart, but there are still squares on my Mercury. And that translates to being misunderstood, dismissed, ignored, etc.
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I do not try to be popular. To me that is a waste of time.
We aren’t done yet! Now the good stuff…trines…well they are supposed to be good
- Mercury in the 10th — excellent for a writer
- Mars trine Sun
- Mars trine Moon
- Mars trine Mercury — excellent for a writer!
- ASC trine Sun
- ASC trine Moon
- ASC trine Mercury — I’m a writer! Woohoo!
Mars is momentum and I have plenty of that. And Mercury is in a good position, most of the time. So this outcome translates into a writer that can finish something, several things, but because of the 12th house, is mostly hidden.
And maybe being hidden isn’t so bad…
Because I don’t need to be accused of writing this article with ChatGPT. I really should edit with it because it would improve my grammar but…I don’t, oh well. But then people accuse me of doing plots and character development with ChatGPT and the list goes on. I don’t use it for any of those things. And if I sound like ChatGPT then I can’t help that. I’m not hiding that I have used ChatGPT to create some images on this blog and I have experimented with it. And then, I quit. Because it took my voice away and added these weird characters. I honestly feel like people can tell the difference. So bad grammar it is instead.
I don’t think I’ll ever be popular enough that anyone will take the time to analyze every single line for ChatGPT so I’m just not going to worry about it. From my POV, no one cares. I have a bad astrology chart. (This paragraph written by a Rahu in Cancer.)
Ok, so how bad was it? What happened
- Childhood was a mess. I really didn’t get to be a child. I had to be a grown up at 6. And then I was picked on and bullied and that was before I even made it out of the 1980s.
- My 20s were better but brought relationships where I was ignored and dismissed. In some cases I felt like I was treated like an object instead of a person. I started to get insomnia at 26. It got worse at 36.
- My 30s were better despite insomnia. Sade sati brought a lot of career drama. I had to change paths. I took a lot of classes to improve my new skills. It was hard work. Relationships had the same painful dynamic only this time I left them much sooner.
- I was almost 40 when I finally got married! And even then, I had my worse health scare a year after I was married. Recovering from surgery was extremely hard for me.
So did it all turn out?
Well, it kinda did.
The end result of this chart in mid-40s is the following:
- Happily married
- No children, and that’s just fine by me
- Strong emotional resilience no matter what happens
- Strong boundaries
- A long list of published books
- A room full of completed paintings
- Self-taught piano player
- Sleep is under control now but will always be something I have to “work on”
- Health is under control, but still something that will always require some maintenance.
So was it a bad chart?
Yes it really was.
Sometimes I don’t even know how I survived the beginning of this life.
And I think there was at least one time I may not have. Childhood had at least one, many two times when things could have been become much MUCH worse. I got lucky those times things did not escalate. So if people with my placements fall into dark depression, I totally get it. It gets really dark sometimes. And it’s not fair.
So despite the chart, I am happy with the outcome now, years, decades later. I do like the final outcome.
Because I get to be me on my terms.
