Addiction.
Addiction in my young self
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Addiction is daunting. It’s the one thing you feel like you can’t control. The one thing that your body feels overpowered by. Your mind wants to stop and be free, however your heart is in a whole different place . Being able to overcome addiction isn’t easy. But I’ll help you by informing you on how I overcame my past two addictions, Daydreams, and a porn addiction when I was only 9. You have to give everything to God. He can and will help , I promise. That’s how I overcame my first addiction. I was addicted to this lustful, boastful, and just disrespectful show. It’s a popular anime that many of us know and have watched, HunterxHunter. I was obsessed about this show for about a year. It’s all I talked about, practically all I have watched and heard. I didn’t know the levels this anime influenced me. After watching this show I began to imagine myself into that show, and daydreamed about it. Take knowledge that the show I am referring to is filled with murder, fighting, sometimes lust. The two most common are murder and fighting those are the two that happened most throughout the show. I imagined myself killing and fighting to kill. One of the characters is an assassin, Killua, he killed in either the first or second episode. They made his kill look “cool “ and like a cool habit, Murder is a sin, this says it in Exodus 20:13 “ You shall not murder” The same message is also located in Proverbs 6:16–19 “These six things doth The Lord hate: Yea, seven are an abomination unto him: A proud look, a lying tongue and hands that shed innocent blood, an heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running into mischief , a false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren” These daydreams weren’t just a one time thing. This happened every, single, day. Every time I was alone, in a crowded area, or in my room, All I would do is think about this show. This show indicated that fighting and murder is normal. You might be thinking “All I have to do is not imagine it and not be obsessed” No. There is much more to this show. I was not the only one that has encountered negative things like this. In this show there were many people God convicted while or after watching this show, this is a show filled with blood, gore and murder. People even say “ I have never seen this much murder in an anime before.” There is even an assassination group called “The phantom troupe” I prayed to God because If I continued, it could have interfered with my life in a negative way. After I prayed the daydreams stopped after 1–4 days, that quick. by just praying to God I was lifting a weight off of my shoulder. It was all thanks to the goodness and the love of God, In Galatians 5:1 in the bible it says “ For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery” I was following the passion of the flesh which I shouldn’t have had. The bible verse that states this is located in 1 Peter 2;11” Beloved, I urge you as sojourners and exiles to abstain from the passions of the flesh, which wage war against your soul” I turned away from the addiction of HunterxHunter. But still my other addiction is worse. A p0rn addiction. I was only 9 years old. Read my Young addiction to see how I overcame it and how it happened.
