Banzai
Nothing is constant in this world. We live in such place where we can’t rely on anything. Nature, friends, family- even things which don’t gather any feelings tend to betray us in some way. Let me ask you a simple question. Have you ever thought why cutting your hand with a knife hurt you so much? Like it can’t give you any emotional damage. So, why do you feel hurt? Do we actually give it any thought? I guess we don’t. We have already established the fact that there are things which can hurt us in a tremendous way that we can’t imagine. As we grow ourselves, more of those will occur and simultaneously we will face them. Is there any way which will prevent them from happening? Have you asked yourself, “When does it end?” I hope not. My belief says that if we don’t ask these questions, we can actually get over them real fast. It’s like living in denial but to lead a basic and stable life.
Opening your eyes before the sun does, you tend to get a feeling of loneliness inside your heart. Thinking that the world is having a good night sleep , a thought crosses your mind. “Where did I lost it? Where did I left everything that could potentially give me happiness? Did I give up easy? Or Is it my destiny?” I know that it’s is not fair. It shouldn’t be. Maybe it’s just a coincidence. I believe that nature balances everything in this world. So, maybe it’s just my turn to feel all the sadness for now. It will be over soon. But if you could be immortal, it would go on for thousand years more.
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You close your eyes and suddenly some light pops out. You are trying so hard to witness some light now. “Maybe this light is going to save me from all darkness I have stored for the last couple of years. The sheer light around me would make me free -free from all the necessary evil. Like success ,money or any other worldly achievement. That light would make me lose my world. I will be dwelling in some kind of castle made from dust and ice. I will have no one around but that light. One more light and I will survive this mess. I would never look back at the mess I made, I will just move around and loose my way over. Maybe it will be another thousand years for me to reach there. Maybe I will die on my way. But it’s going to be worth it. At least, I tried to find that light. At least, I didn’t give up on the light when the world gave up on me.”
People produce heat weaves of emotion inside themselves. They actually can’t explore all of that because deep inside, everyone’s a mess. The mess everyone makes everyday inside themselves, if we pile them up ,its gonna take zillions of universes to give them proper accommodation. These emotions are your rock bottom, these emotions are your peak happiness. These piles contain your everyday smile , you everyday tears. These piles tell your story- how much you struggle to live everyday. They shout at the world so silently that only the dogs can hear them and they bark with a selfless mind to show that they are crying for you when no one can. Your everyday journey is stored somewhere in this universe and they are kept hidden from you so that you live for a while. You are given access to them on a certain point when no one is there for you, no one can hear your cry, no one can actually explore what’s inside you. Your emotions are kept in a mystery box with the power of the cosmic source. Even you yourself can’t get inside that unless you are given permission to get the access key. I know it’s frustrating. Why can’t you get inside something which solemnly happened because of you ? Is it that much scary that the universe itself hides them from you? I guess I am talking while walking on thin air.
“May all the love be cherished. May all the hopes be fulfilled. May everyone live long enough to get rid of any regret they make along the way. What if it needs ten thousand years more? I would still wait. The system may collapse, the gravity may stop, the whole world may come to an end, I will still be standing for the love I crave, for the face I smile for, for the heart I live for. Even if it’s going to be in an infinite void, I will still be standing.”
