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A WRITER'S NOTEBOOK
Eleven Views
This is the third time Maya has tried to do this and has not yet succeeded.
No success story.
Not a shortcut.
A writer, who is trying to determine what’s really effective.
In the third instance, Maya was lying on her bed, a pillow behind her and her laptop on her lap.
She was pleased with this one. She had a good night’s sleep the previous night.
She updated the "stats" page. Once. Twice. The numbers remained steady.
Eleven views.
She left her cell phone face down next to her. Then, peeked at it briefly.
No one in the house knew she had published anything, so no one asked anything. She thought, “AGAIN??”
Three pieces she came to genuinely believe in.
Three with no success.
For a long time she would tell herself the same story that most people tell themselves: “Perhaps, I should write more and post more often..so that the quality improves with practice.”
And she took a longer time to sit with that "AGAIN??" with the warmth still in her laptop, the eleven still there on the screen.
