the unspoken
Walau akhirnya aku kehilangan cinta, tapi aku tau dia anak perempuan yang memendam semuanya sendirian, dia anak yang baik hati, dia anak yang mengusahakan untuk dirinya sendiri maupun orang lain.
Walau sekarang bukan aku lagi yang menemani hari harinya, dan terlepas kisah kita yang menyakitkan aku akan tetap melihatmu sebagai perempuan baik, perempuan yang pernah aku tatap matanya dengan penuh rasa sayang.
Walau kita emang gabisa diperbaiki lagi,tell me that ur happy, even bukan sama aku. tolong bahagia sama siapapun yang kamu mau ya. promise that u’ll never feel alone, karna aku selalu bangga sama kamu tanpa perlu kamu tau. maaf karna akhirnya can’t fix this relationship, i’m so bad. sorry
Maybe I’m not built for love. So high above, I feel it coming down. She said, in my heart and in my head. Tell me why this has to end. I can’t save us, my Atlantis, we fall. We built this town on shaky ground. I can’t save us, my Atlantis. We built it up to pull it down
I’m sorry for the way I hurt you. I never wanted to be the reason you cried, the reason you changed, or the reason you had to walk away. The truth is, I tried. Maybe not perfectly, maybe not enough, but I tried with the heart I had. And that’s what hurts the most.
I hate knowing that someone I loved so deeply ended up carrying pain because of me. You can be angry. You can hate me if you need to. But please know that loving you was never a lie. I wasn’t the best thing that happened to you. Maybe I was one of your regrets. But you’ll never be one of mine.
If I stay, then I lose myself. If I leave, then I lose you. But if I wait, it’ll never be me. And if I move on, it’ll never be you. So what should I do? Make a left where there’s nothing right? Or make a right where there’s nothing left?
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Aku rela disalahkan, dimaki pun aku diam, jangan bertengkar lagi, aku mencintaimu, istirahatlah. Andai saja kamu tau betapa berusahanya aku untuk berubah dan memberikan versi terbaikku untukmu. Sakit banget ya sama aku? aku egois banget aku ga bisa ngertin kamu, aku ga peka, dan aku akar permasalahan kita, aku minta maaf ya?
Maaf juga kalau selama ini aku belum bisa buat kamu selalu bahagia dan aku selalu menjadi sebab kesedihan kamu. aku benar benar sangat mencintaimu, dan aku juga sangat takut kehilanganmu tapi sayangnya aku selalu saja membuat kesalahan yg bisa membuat mu sangat marah kepadaku jadi aku minta maaf ya.
I miss the face you made when the food tasted good. I miss the tone of your voice when I annoyed you.
I miss the smell of your hair when you put your head between my collar and jaw. And I miss the way I felt about myself when I was with you. And I miss your laugh, your touch, your voice, and your company.
Can we start again? not by pretending that nothing ever happened. but by choosing to understand each other through everything that happened. by learning from it, together. let’s let go of the past. let’s let go of the pain, without letting go of each other. let’s wipe away each other’s tears. let’s heal the wounds that life left on us. let’s rebuild what was broken, not into what it once was, but into something even stronger than before.
because i don’t want a perfect relationship. i just want one where we keep choosing each other, even after everything we’ve been through.
I don’t want a perfect relationship. I want you. On the difficult days. On the messy days. On the days when loving each other takes a little more effort.
Aku masih di sini bukan karena tidak punya pilihan tapi kerena hatiku sudah terlanjur memilihmu dengan sadar, dengan penuh resiko dengan segala kemungkinan yang tidak memihakku. selama aku mampu, aku akan tetap disini karena yang ku mau masih kamu.
