Mid ‘24
This is my first writing after recent break-up.
June was so difficult to me. The day she broke up with me, I slept unwell. According to the watch we unboxed together at her house, I slept about 3 hours. I still eat and play game on my phone but my mind kept running wild.
It never occurred to me she would end our relationship. There were so many compromise I believed she committed to me. I wouldn’t mention it though, the least I can say I thought there were future for me.
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But no. People perhaps never realized shit going to hit at any moment.
I left her house after throwing my TWS. I just really mad. I don’t want to hit her but I can’t hold my emotion back then.
The first week was hell. I barely remember what happened. All I can see now is simply the empty saving I meant to use to propose to her. I spent it all on anything that might make fill my empty heart. But it doesn’t work.
The only positive thing I can mention is I finally run 150K a month. Something that never happened during my happy moment. But still sad. It takes a break up to push me into running again.
Another thing that helped me get through June was my friend’s illness. Spent two days visiting him, talked a lot. I even shared my break up with him. Alhamdulillah, he got released from hospital last Sunday. Hopefully he get better and better.
