My Bilingual Routine and Decluttering My Mess, Day №4

Going Back to Using Vocabulary While Learning Anything You Can Find

At this age, 22, I know that everything was easier in the past… not because I had it figured out, but because I was being moved toward whatever direction my parents decided I should go.

Now, the things that I have are the result of the actions that I didn’t change.

Sure, I have a system to generate content now, and it’s relevant to the people that I once imagined writing and creating for. I wanted to be an English teacher, so I create lessons related to the problems I have just solved for myself. I wanna talk to those people, so I’m writing. I share things on my social media so that everybody gets a piece of it all.

But my room is still a mess.

I have commitment issues…

And you may ask, which would be the most important question I can answer, “How, if you committed to English so well?” It wasn’t because I wanted to. It was the only thing that I could do… Like everything else, it came from the mess, but unlike everything else, you actually thrive when you learn to live that way.

I was reading not long ago that, to learn a language, you actually have to make amends with the fact that you will not entirely understand where you stand, what you’ve learned completely, what you need to practice more, what you must learn next…