Reality is such a crazy experience.
How perception differs after we have accepted another reality from a single experience. Change comes with friction — feelings.
I don’t justify because I believe getting stuck in old patterns is better. I have to defend my own cause because I know I’m not beyond fixing — I’m not useless.
But, trying to prove myself comes wrong when we understand the assignment, yet we stop to explain why it’s not malicious.
Except that people don’t owe us understanding, either respect. If we want it, we must give it to ourselves and others; those two can only make ourselves feel heard… it was never about others really “getting it.”
People already know what to believe, if they forgive you or not; if they see your mistakes as theirs. Not being forgiven doesn’t mean you’re wrong. You can’t be part of all societies.
But if you want to be part of a society different from any you have seen before. Wait to be amazed by the amount of rejection your body will go through.
The other
Listen. You will try to scream every fear and thought that comes to you, but wait… You cannot stop from erasing when growing, let all information scream before it vanishes. Do it always, never stop it — it’s human nature.
In your head, it will be pessimism at its greatest, but keep listening.
That society will be against you, too, and they won’t listen. That’s good — let them scream into you, like cleaning you from your past into their approval. You will never get it anyway, but will do it all the time — everywhere.
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Rejection is for yourself; you can reject everything and anything you want, but don’t move against the mass — they will try to kill you.
They won’t see what you see. They don’t have to.
Rejection from the inside out will be like trying to quit. If you listen to it, you won’t scream… Let them scream.
You will never know when to leave if you have never stayed. So stay forever until you’re somewhere deep in the distance.
You’ll know you’re old enough when other people start asking about yourself. Only adults are willing to listen… in the same way we’ve been learning from the beginning of this article.
Be brief, be smart; don’t suggest what it is, tell them exactly the stupidity you’re thinking. Yes! “I don’t appreciate people believing they know a lot. They are against my beliefs, and sometimes I cannot defend myself from whatever nonsense they’re selling to minors. … You know what I don’t really give a shit. Maybe I needed to say it out loud to bore myself.”
When people scream at you, be gentle — they’re terrified of you.
Write so that you will feel like listening to yourself. It had the same effect as having someone genuinely interested in your thoughts and experience. It will make it easier to hear them all scream like children, trying to make you be like their role model.
They want the same thing as you: love, affection, admiration, that weird intuition that won’t leave us when we’re finally letting the mind take over and rule us. I think we can learn to ask it better, in a way that we actually get it.
Yes, I’m saying we love to be together because evolution hasn’t got rid of the shadow that makes us want company from anybody at all… that and sex. I mean, but it isn’t that bad; you maintain something, a community, and stick to yourself, reading and absorbing until you die.
Nothing else. No magic. Even though I want Magic Lands to have the same future as we have had: an end.
Thank you for reading.
See you next post.
